Before I make any major commitment in my life, I have begun the practice (thanks to my husband!) of evaluating the reciprocal cycle of my commitment. I have grown-up in a family intent on service, high on fun, and constant on activity. We were very *busy* growing up--always the family out of town the most, not around the family dinner table the most, but pretty much also having the most epic time together. The various activities we were involved in were all great things, so the schedule was full of awesomeness, but at the end of the day, it was still full. :)
In my adult life, I paired this need for speed along with my inability to say, "no." or a constant desire to never miss-out on fun! Dangerous combo. It would often leave me over-committed and under-delivering... or under-being-present.
Just this past weekend, the pastor-man at our church gave a super-special sermon on giving, peace, rest, etc. like one I have never heard. I grew up in the church, so truth be known, I have heard a lot of these sermons before. All very true. All very biblical, but at the end of the day--all quite ineffective in pushing me in to life-changing generosity. But this sermon really hit home. He dispelled two very poignant myths I had not even realized I had bought in to. Number uno: I do not need 100% of what I have--God gave us 7 days, and one of those he dedicated to rest. As if to say--"You have these 6 days to work, and I know your life is full, but you don't need 7 to work. One is for rest." And same with finances--whatever we have, be it a lot or a little--we simply *do not* need it all. Although I am pretty darn savvy at convincing myself how thoroughly and truly I do need things. The second myth was even more enlightening. When it comes to generosity, I had always thought that greed was the opposite--or at least the root of why people (read: I) didn't give more. Which never really made sense in my mind because I just don't really believe that I am a greedy person. But what pastor-man stated was that greed is the little brother of fear. Fear is the real reason we don't give more. The enemy has seriously twisted our desire to be good stewards of money and responsible to make us believe we need (or may very well at some point need) way more that we actually do. It is the whole "man storing up food in his storage shed" parable. And then he said it. In all areas of our lives, God has called us to have margins... in our time, in our work, in our finances, in our commitments. We need those margins to be able to be flexible with where ever or whenever we should be called to use them.
And the margins in my life are the area that are closing in with rapid acceleration.
I feel like my photography has been improving in leap and bounds lately. More friends are asking me to shoot photos and there is more content that I am working hard on and would love to share. Not only that, but I am moving past copying final edits to a USB and leaving them on my porch or spending 4 bajillion hours piece and parceling emails with edited photos. I want a cohesive workspace to view and organize my work, so i think it's about time. I got married this past July, so I figure I can go ahead and lock in the last name on the "brand" now. (There will always be those things men just never understand!) I am working on the layout and hopeful of what this platform can offer to my photography, my hobby. So, there are 3 reason, based on the rambling above why now I have decided to launch this new site.
1. a place to view, organize, cull, curate, and ultimately improve my work.
2. a space that will allow clients to view their photos, order prints, ask questions, etc.
3. a fun way to organize shoots, maybe have a few new people see what I am doing, and chronicle that progress.
So, hope you enjoy. More to come from the margins.